Thursday, February 19, 2009


Well i just had an awakening....My ex thank god has made me realize just what exactly i don't EVER want in a relationship/man ever again. He is complete scum and i feel bad for anyone that has to deal with him in life. He is a user of all...If you put out money he will take, if you put out your bed he will take, if you put out full love he will take.

I have lost all respect with how he treats me calling me names all the time. I am better than him and i deserve greatness. I am a beautiful woman and i am melting the lbs off. My confidence has sky rocketed, how? Well let me tell you, the guys that are approaching me are gorgeous. Like i never thought that i would get something as amazing as they are. We are talking MUSCULAR, sweet, have actual goals in life and steady jobs and knows how to treat a lady.

For the future of john i hope he finds something in life that makes him money. Maybe he will finally seek help that he needs. This has made me realize that he was nothing. He actually held me back from great potential.

The one thing i will miss are his kids they deserve everything in the world and i know that with their mom Nikki they will get that. She did the right thing by moving them up to UTAH. You Go Girl. She saw what was coming but i was blinded by his lies and CON ARTIST ways.

I will never let a man do what John did to me. Some of you will take this as a hate email I DON'T CARE if you only knew what i have been through.

For those of you who are wondering why this blog is so negative text me and i will let you know all the details. Its weird a part of me wants him to suffer how he made me feel, and to watch him fail over and over again. The other part well....there is no other part right now. lol.




Anonymous said...

You Go Girl!!! I am so happy for you that you have been able to shake loose of him and stand on your own two feet and show the reall you! I have been praying that you would be the Tasha I knew in High School again- fun-loving, out-going, a confident and sexy woman that you are and have always been! I am so happy for you!! I am sorry I was not more of a shoulder for you to cry on or there to help you more- but I am so glad that you got here anyways!!! You are woman hear you ROAR (or MOAN- which ever gives you more fun:) )

mamma said...

ya know baby girl, you are beautiful in your own right. you dont need a man to make you know that.
i think its great though, that you realize that there is a better man out there for you. that life never has endings...just fresh, new, beginnings.
i have watched you grow into a lovely, beautiful woman....i am proud of you.

Jenny said...

Be cool babe, be cool...