So much has changed in my life the past few months that I just had to write it all down. On the one year anniversary of losing my son the father/the man I thought I was going to marry walked out on me. I did get suicidal and was in an extremely dark place for a few weeks. My family, pastor, and friends helped me to get out of it.
I have recently met someone who is an amazing soul. He has a past of his own but is teaching me to really love and appreciate myself. He has given me confidence that I didn't know I had. I will forever be grateful for what he has done. (Ian, thank you for everything).
At the end of this month I will be starting a new chapter in a new location. A fresh start! I am moving to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. Warmth, ocean, and not a soul that knows me is extremely welcoming. I will be leaving the self conscience, insecure, and worry about what everyone thinks about me in Laramie, Wyoming. Feels so good to say that.
I am excited about experiencing new things, new foods, new adventures, and new people! :) I will never forget the ones who were there for me in my time of need but also those who caused so much hell in my life that really helped me see what a real friend is.
My faith in god has expanded so much. I fully understand what he has in his mind for me. I am a lover, not a fighter. I love helping others. I am so thankful for the strength and courage he has placed in my mind and heart.
One thing I have discovered is that I am me.....I will always be nice, loving, appreciative, respectful, humorous, sensitive, emotional and happy. I will no longer accept negativity in my life. I will communicate when I have a problem. It's time to do this "adulting" thing :).
My next post will be once I am settled in South Carolina in 2 weeks!
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